Some changes have occurred in my private life since I last wrote here. I had some calm moments, but also these tough ones happened. You know, sometimes I couldn’t find any strength and motivation… just like that. Well, I still feel this way from time to time. Hesitating between willing to survive and a desire to disappear once and for all. This is my everyday life.
Again the same… I’ve disappeared for few months. I was supposed to write at the end of April, but every time I tried, something wrong was happening to me.
There are some days, when I feel I can do everything I want to; and also there are days when I would prefer to disappear leaving no trace.
February has already begun.
I thought I’ll be able to make a note before January ends, but after all, I had so much to do, that I couldn’t easily handle everything. Ran out of time to write.
I’ve been quiet for a long time again.
Actually, it’s not the best time for me, I have no power and to be honest - I’m not even trying to gain it. I would like to become invisible right now.
Autumnal walks make me calmer, but even if I’m willing to go to the forest, I’m not feeling much better.
I was supposed to write this post earlier, but actually the time was slipping through my fingers. I realized about it right now, it’s been a month since we’ve return from the Tricity. So today I’m not going to write a lot, photos are enough.
Some time ago I’ve written a post about 20 things you surely don’t know about me.
So now it’s a perfect time for 20 things which maybe you don’t know about cats.
Well… Nothing extraordinary had happened since I’ve last written here, but anyway I have a lot of to say right now.
Every time I make a ridiculously long post I make categories, just to make it easier for you to read only these parts you like.
To be honest, I had no idea how much time will take me to write this post. My recent lack of motivation doesn’t let me to do my stuff as fast as I usually do. Everything I try to make is too tiring. And believe me, I have not enough strength to fight with my own demons and force myself to be always on time with things I need to do. sometimes I feel that I’ve lost somewhere. I don’t know where to go and what to do. Maybe I’ve just lost myself.
Well, March has finally came here…
The time between the New Year and today has passed away so quick and imperceptibly. Just like I would fall asleep for more than 2 months.
Damn, January has passed away so quickly, I’ve just realized that it’s almost the middle of the February.
I’ve spent the whole of January preparing for the Warsaw Coffee Festival and collecting things for the coffee shop. I haven’t mentioned before about the festival, you have to forgive me. It was a spontaneous decision, and to be honest, I wasn’t sure almost till the end if we’ll be able to go there. We didn’t have a lot of time to buy and assemble everything we needed. But we did it!
Well, my frame of mind is like a sine wave recently. That’s why I’ve been so late with this note. One day I’m totally effete, and the second one I’m so full of energy, that I could almost move the mountains.
It has been so long since I last wrote here. I had a lot of things to do and to be honest - I was even looking for new excuses for “I don’t have time for blogging right now”.
But I’m back right now, I always return here, no matter what...
It’s around one month since we have returned from Taipei. I planned to write something here earlier, but to be honest - partly I didn’t have a time, and mostly I didn’t want to…
Few unpleasant things happened to me and I just wanted to get used to them.
Well… I’ve been sick since we arrived in Taiwan and I still didn’t fully heal! I just caught the flu. I was taking tons of medicines and every time when I thought I’m finally getting better, flu has returned!
I had to cancel every meeting I had during this week. I hope then next week will stay exactly as I planned it before because I've already fallen behind with my duties.
At the end of January, we had to go to London again. It was an unexpected business trip, but we also had a lot of time for sightseeing and chilling in the city.
It’s the same again - I promised myself, that I’ll write notes more often than before… And I realized again, that I had time for everything else but not for writing. Sometimes I feel that I neglect my blog. Of course I wasn’t bored all this time, but still - I wasn’t here. I have a lot kind of hobbies, it’s really hard to divide my spare time for each of them. I would love to make everything, but when I fall down into some DIY I cannot stop making it.
Oh, it happened again - I haven’t written for a long time. 2 months for a blogger is like ages. I can only justify myself with a lack of time and no desire for writing. It’s always hard to return to writing after a long time because there is a lot of to say, but note shouldn’t have enormous length.
Dreamer with unlimited imagination. Not always patient, in part spitfire. Terribly afraid of loneliness and too long lasted silence. DIY lover, crazy cat lady, artistic soul. Autumn spirit.
To be honest, I had no idea how much time will take me to write this post. My recent lack of motivation doesn’t let me to do my stuff as fast as I usually do. Everything I try to make is too tiring. And believe me, I have not enough strength to fight with my own demons and force myself to be always on time with things I need to do. sometimes I feel that I’ve lost somewhere. I don’t know where to go and what to do. Maybe I’ve just lost myself.
